SLEEP THINGS

7:49 am


A story about sleep things....

Aka Lack of sleep things
Aka I need a coffee before my coffee
Aka I'm a zombie
Aka Anyone else feeling basic AF
Aka That month that my kids screwed up our bedtime schedule

I am tired.
It's the kind of tired that transcends reason and logic and patience. It's the kind of tired that tugs at your sanity. It's the kind of tired that calls for mama tears at 3 am because your kid is crying in the cot, again, and you feel broken in your soul. It's a desperate tired.

LOOKING AT MY BED LIKE IT'S A LONG LOST LOVER


Our bedtime routine has been sacred to me since Sophie was about 2. In the beginning, we had no routine. I breastfed on demand and this meant that more often than not I was up all hours of the night with a little blonde cherub stuck to my boo. But then we stopped breastfeeding and things fell. Into a really great rhythm. Sophie went to bed at 7.30 and was asleep by 8. When Gracie came along things got a little rickety but luckily she loved her sleep so we quickly settled into a really great routine.

About 4 months ago, everything fell to absolute shit. My life is chaos and most days, my pure exhaustion leaves me reeling.

I don't really know how it happened, might be Gracie and her teething, might be the school holidays, but we've totally lost our bedtime routine. There is nothing left of it. Nothing. It's like the dark lands of despair and exhaustion. OK, I am being incredibly dramatic now, but I'm so tired. I don't know how else to be.

LITERALLY FEELING LIKE I AM LOSING MY MIND


The thing about being deprived of sleep is that it doesn't just make you yawn a lot, it kind of infests your whole life. You start to feel unhinged, you turn on your partner, you're clipped and impatient with your kids, you cry all the time. Basically, it's a shit show and it's horrible.

All. I want is to put my kids in their beds, kiss them goodnight and have them stay put, with no crying and carry on. It's not a lot. It's not like I'm asking for a miracle.

SO BASICALLY, JUST HELP ME


I've researched a few sleep things and read a few books, but I'm basically writing this post as a cry for help. A cry for advice. I'm calling out to the mom tribe and asking for someone to throw me a. Frigging bone. Please.

Do you know how I can get my kids to go to bed?
Have you tried anything that changed your life? Can you tell me what to do??

Guys, I'm desperate. Send me your wisdom.

Nikki
Xx

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2 comments

  1. I think you need to call Erica Lotter. She's helped a few people I know and works well. I've even phoned her for advise and she's really sweet 072 616 2451 or erica@momslifeline.co.za xxx

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  2. Thank you so much for this lovely. I am going to give her a call. Although strangely enough, last night was actually quite chilled. Maybe the universe just needed to hear my cry for help?

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