WHAT HAVE I DONE

Friday, August 31, 2018 Cape Town, South Africa


I have agreed to do a really crazy thing. Some of you will know that one of my main goals for 2018 is to re-kindle my love of exercise and get my ass into a healthier place. It's been a crazy few months. A few weeks ago I sat down and started the long and tiring process of clearing my camera roll on my phone. I saw a picture and it lit a fire inside my heart.

Four or Five months ago I started this “healthy eating journey”. I can see a lot of eyes rolling as they read this, but stay with me… Please. Initially, I had been quite focused on losing weight, on being a specific size, on a number. But then I had a trip to the doctor and I realised that right now, what is absolutely crucial to my life, is just being healthy. I

So back to this picture…


This picture was taken on a happy day. I love this dress. I love the memories attached to this moment in my life but when I look at this picture I feel sad. This picture reminds me of everything I hate.

I don't hate being fat.
I don't hate my body.

I hate struggling to get off the couch. I hate not being able to run after my kids. I hate feeling winded after picking up a box of Legos. I hate being that one mom at the kid's party that's not running and playing along with her kids. I hate feeling like my life I ruled by food. I hate feeling anxious about going out because I don't feel comfortable in my clothing.

I don't hate my body.
I don't hate being fat.

But, I am unhappy. I need to make these changes that terrify me. I need to embrace a healthier mindset so that I can have a healthier body. I need to do this now. My body hurts and aches in ways it never did and I will never be able to feel OK about that.

So I'm back here. Talking about getting healthy again.

SO WHAT AM I DOING? 


The wonderful people at Adventure Bootcamp for Women got in touch with me recently and asked if I would like to collaborate with them and create some great content together around their Journey to Summer Challenge. I was so keen! I mean I am pretty freaking terrified as well because yikes, my body is not a fit one, but, (big BUTT) I made a commitment to myself, to be healthier. To build a body that can carry me through my life, to change my unhealthy relationship with food, to push myself to achieve more than I currently am. For the first time in years, I am actually excited to move. I cannot wait for this challenge to start on the 24th of September.



WHO'S WITH ME?


ABC runs classes all over the country at a  variety of different locations at times that would suit both working and stay at home mamas.

I hope that in 3 months time I can look see this picture as the motivation it feels like today. I hope that future me sticks to the goals present me is so desperate to achieve. And if she doesn't, I hope that she gets there one day because, at the risk of sounding dramatic, this is her life I am fighting for.

To find out more about the Journey to Summer Challenge, click here>
To follow Adventure Bootcamp, click here for Instagram or here for Facebook >

If you’re really into my journey and want to get all the details, videos, crying, recipes and more, you can follow my Fat Mom on a Diet Instagram account here >

You guys, I just want to say that I am choosing to open up about a really personal thing on my blog and my social platforms. Weight loss, exercise, changing food habits… are all very loaded topics in my life and I would love to make these changes and share this story in a judgement free zone. I accept that everyone has their own opinions about diets and getting fit and body positivity. For me, right now, nothing is more important than getting my body into a healthier place so that I have the strength and stamina to be the kind of mom I want to be for my girls.

This isn't about a size, this isn't about a goal weight, this is about shifting my lifestyle in a massive way, towards a healthier me.

Are you joining me?

Nikki
xxx


5 comments

  1. Good luck! You've got this and you'll be great!

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    1. Thank you SO much! I am so excited to just show up for myself.

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  2. This seems like a doable programme. All the best!

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    1. Thanks so much Lungi! I am so excited!

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  3. This is so me right now. My baby girl is almost 7 months old and I need to lose the extra weight and just become healthier - for myself, for my daughter and my 7 year old son. I don't want my daughter growing up with a mom who is uncomfortable in her body and constantly aware of her weight and what she eats...and I want to be able to run around with my son while he still wants me to. I am definitely going to follow your new account and will take it one day at a time on this journey to a healthier me. Will have a look at the ABC website as well. Good luck and thank you for sharing your journey with us.

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