Friday, September 28, 2018 Cape Town, South Africa

Exercise phobia is a real thing. It's not laziness, it's an all consuming fear of working out. I suffer from this affliction and guys, it's not easy to overcome. This past Monday I had my first ever session at @abcbootcamper and leading up to it I made every excuse about why I couldn't attend. I went so far as to practically chicken out while sitting in the parking lot on Monday morning. I broke out in a stress sweat. I had to do a nervous poo. I told Regan that this was not for me and I should just head home. 

But I didn't. I decided to show up for myself. I decided that even though I was afraid I would force myself to do this and if I really hated it I wouldn't go again. 

I'm so glad I went. The sessions are structured in a really accessible way. You start off with a warm up - which I felt was a lot tougher than the rest of the workout - and that consists of a fast walk, then a slow jog, then a faster jog, then a jog hop and then a walk lunge type of story. Then you move into groups and work your way through a circuit of 5 different exercises which you do for 45 seconds each and run through the entire circuit for about 10 minutes. Then you take a short water break and move on to your next, more challenging, circuit which also lasts for 10 minutes. Then you do a stretch routine and then you're done. I think I'm probably over simplifying it and making it sound a lot easier than it was. Honestly I feel like someone took a baseball bat to my thighs. Our instructor, Jason, was wonderful and encouraging and made sure to mention that the workouts increase in intensity over the weeks which is a little scary considering how tough I felt Monday was. 

There is  something quite incredible that happens when I push myself. There is such power in that moment when you feel like you just can't push anymore and then you do and your muscle cry out in a strange sort of painful victory and you know that whatever fear you carried before you started is now gone. Exercise phobia is a real thing. But once you overcome it, amazing things happen. 

Right now I am a mom, I am overweight, my body is recovering from the stress of birthing 2 human beings, things wobble, things shake. Every single time I make the decision to get up and move, I am being brave. Because deciding to show up is a lot harder than any exercise you could throw my way. I have spent 6 years not believing in myself. And now that is all changing and it is pure magic. 

I am showing up. 
I am being brave. 
I am proud of this Nikki. 

On Monday morning 1 hour of exercise felt like this impossible, unattainable goal. Today it feels more like an answer to a question I have been too afraid to ask. I am capable of more and I'm achieving more with each session and through the creaky, achy muscles there is one incredible truth that whispers at the back of my mind:

I can do this.


1 comment

  1. I have been at Advenure Bootcamp for the past +-7years. It has not only changed my life in so many ways. Some days are still hard to pitch up and some are easier.

    I have made wonderfull friends I call my sisters.

    My advise for you would be Do this for you every single time you show up Do it for being healthier for yourself and your family Do it for getting fitter and happier


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